this story is being put here by the urging of my shrink...heh the sequel, when it's written, 
will be added. 

*disclaimer: i can not be held responsible for the contents of this story, as my stress level 
has driven me to a very high level of insanity. 

there once was a beautiful young girl who known throughtout the land for her great 
personality and sense of humor. she was always happy and felt like it was her calling to 
share her happiness with others. one night, she recieved a strange text message that said 
simply, will you marry me?? thinking that this was another chance to share her happiness, 
she replied simply, yes, when and where? another text message came back, " tomorrow in 
erie, pennsylvania" she thought it was a little soon, but she said simply, "great, i'll kidnap a 
man to do the ceremony and meet you there tomorrow." late that night, she dressed up as a 
bandit and raided a business nearby, handcuffing and gagging the first man she saw and 
blinfolding him before he saw who she was. soooo she brought the man to the border of 
pennslvania and held up a sign that said marriage ceremony here. many guys pulled over, 
but none of them knew about any text messages, so she slapped each one across the face 
and said "get lost scumbag." after waiting all day for the man to show, she finally got so 
angry that she crumpled the sign in her fist and declared that she would hunt down and kill 
the man who had done this to her. she had no idea how she would do it though. she sent a 
text message that said "your days are numbered, prepare to die" she traced the cell phone 
up to buffalo, new york, and discovered that the man that had sent it was at a wedding. she 
barged over and saw a group of people that had three guys and two girls. she shoved the 
two girls out of the way and said "which one of you guys is the scumbag that stood me up 
at my wedding??" a very handsome blonde guy stepped forward and said "that was me, but 
if i had known you were so beautiful, i would have shown up!!" the girl just stared at him for 
a second and thought to herself "this guy is too hott to kill...." so she gave him a flashing 
smile and said "welll in that case...." she slapped him across the face, kicked him where it 
counts and said "drop dead jerk" and walked away.
the moral of this story--> don't look at strange text messages!!!!!!!

there really was inspiration for that story, but i don't really have time to get into it, seeing 
it's rather a long story, and i would have to admit that i have a knack for meeting the 
wierdest people ever and getting into even wierder conversations with them. be very afraid 
of the sequel lol.

so as for what's new in my life, as it has been a very long time since i've updated.....i have 
offically 1 1/2 days left of school, then four regents exams (math, spanish, u.s. history, and 
chemistry...shoot me now) and i will be a senior!! these three years have absolutley flown 
by. i can still remember my very first day as a freshman like it was yesterday....getting lost, 
knowing nobody, the terror of being around over a thousand people i didn't know, hearing 
things i'd never heard of before, getting used ot the homework load, the memory is still 
very fresh. and here it is three years later...i've made many friends, grown used to the rigors 
of highschool, the works. if anybody had told me three years ago that i would be where i am 
now, a member of national honor society, probably in the top 20 in my class, and a number 
of other things, i would have called them crazy. my how things do change....

as i reflect over this past school year and the years past....i can't help but remember how much i did not want to go to public school. i fought it the whole way, and in a lot of ways i resented my parents for making me go. i didn't think i could handle it. Now i'm almost a senior, and now that i've gone through three years of public school, i realize that it's prepared me for the real world, that it really was for the best. there are obviously some things about public school that i will never like, but it's gotten me more prepared for the real world, so i'm thankful that Father knew what he was doing.

soooo i think that's bout it for now. the next time i write in here....maybe i'll have the sequel to my story....hahaha be very afraid lol.   ~*me*~

Well Hannah, this is for you. you're basically the only one who reads this anyways. so i'm gonna try, as best as i can, to tell you how much you mean to me...

I don't really know where to start. i know when we said our last goodbyes i couldn't really find the right words to express what i was feeling, partly cuz i was crying and partly cuz i guess i'm just not good at coming up with the right words on the spot lol. You'll never know how much you mean to me...i remember when you left for Vientam the first time...i missed you, but we weren't really all that close at that time, so it didn't really mean as much. then when you came back and we started emailing...that was the beginning lol. so many of those emails were so pointless, but they were what brought us together. we were probably only like 11 or 12 at the time, but that was the time when i needed you the most...when i started having all those surgeries and when matt left, that was when i really needed a friend like you, and i'm glad Father knew my needs better than i did. you'll never know how many times i was ready to quit therapy after one of my surgeries, and you would write an email that would encourage me to keep at it. then our relationship got to the scheming stage...haha. all our crazy traditions...so many of those were what would keep my going when i was having a rough time. When i first started going to public school...i really struggled to find out where i fit...everywhere. It was always great to know that i fit with you, no matter what.

Then i know what really brought us together, what made us totally inseperable, was camp. ahh camp brought around a whole new set of memories. The first camp was definitley my favorite out of all of them. I remember how scared we were when we first got on the bus, but by the end of the first day all of us were so close. we sang all the time, we didn't care what other people thought haha we rolled down hills, sang songs, did crazy things. it was awesome. I'll always be grateful that i went that year, cuz that was really what brought us so close, and what i went through after that...i really needed a close friend like you. i'll never understand how you managed to put up with me...how ridiclous i was...anybody else would've given up on me a long time ago, but you stuck with me...always encouraging me to do what was right.

There's so many other things i could talk bout here...i guess i've always been humored by how we can be best friends with how totally different we are... i mean...haha i'm tall, blonde, outgoing, and totally crazy, and you're short, brunette, shy, and more down to earth (though you do have your crazy times) we're so different...but i love how well we compliment each other. i draw you out of your shell while you keep me down to earth and focused.

like i said before....you'll never know how much you mean to me. it's because of you, all of your asking and encouraging me to do what's right, that's helped me to where i am today. i would probably be still in the mess i got myself into if it weren't for you. i guess a big part of me...when i was in that mess...didn't want to disappoint you...didn't wanna lose you as my best friend. that was part of what kept me from doing a lot of things i would've regretted...i couldn't bare to see you disappointed with me. you've really helped me to stay on the right way, and i'll never be able to thank you enough for that.

i remember when you first told me that you were going back to Vientam, and that you were going on deputation. i tried not to think about you leaving and tried to focus on the time we still had left. That time went all too quickly for my liking, even though we had some absolutley amazing memories in that time. I know that as the time for you to leave came near, i couldn't help but wonder... why her? why now? why does she have to leave when i need her the most? i really had to fight bitterness...fight my own selfishness. Now, even though i still struggle at times, i understand that i could never be so selfish as to keep you to myself when you could do so much more good in Vietnam.

Sooo....this is my feeble attempt to tell you...that you are the most amazing bestEST friend in the whole world, and that i can never thank Father enough for bringing us together. i know i haven't been the best friend all the time, but you've forgiven me each time, and i love you for it. when you come back, i know we'll pick up right where we left off, and nothing will have changed.

          !! I LOVE YOU HANNAH!!!!!!!!!! !!

OUR FRIENDSHIP

Crunching Nino’s breadsticks,

Walking through the mall

Bouncing on some mattresses,

Oh yes, we did it all!

Lounging on your old futon,

Throwing cheese popcorn

Or perhaps delivering papers

On a chill weekday morn

Throwing balls in Dollar Tree

Waiting for the bus

Scrambling for the mirror when

Our hairs were all a muss!

Climbing over fences just to

Get a stray frisbee

Sitting by a calm, cool crik,

Together-you and me.

Riding bikes that didn’t fit,

At camp our creaky beds

Saying words that did make me

Quickly turn my head.

Zooming right up to your room

Blisters from your shoe

Watching favorite love movies,

Les Mis and Mulan ).

Sooo my birthday was pretty awesome. I love all my peoples who made it special for me. Some of the amazing gifts i got:

Three movies --> 2,3,4 of the Love Comes Softly Series-thanx mom n dave

New Contacts- thanx mom and dad, you're the best <33

Soundtrack of The Chronicles Of Narnia - thanx Jase

20 $ gift card for payless shoe source - thanx Steve and Faith

Fast breaks and Reese's - yummy lol thanx daddy <33

a pair of shoes and a b-day outing later - jess you're awesome

a Bible case, pair of earrings, mini digital camera, body cream, and reese's- thanx sooo much hannah and leah, you're the best <33

You all make my world rock, i don't know what i'd do without you.

Sooo the weekend with hannah and leah was pretty much the most amazing time ever, even though we got little to no sleep. Saturday night we watched probably 10 or so episodes of I Love Lucy till like 2 in the morning, then Sunday night we had a Love Comes Softly marathon and then talked for like an hour and a half till 3 in the morning. Good times haha.

Sooo today me and Faith are going out for lunch and probably shopping. Then tomorrow it's school in the morning, getting out early then Youth Ablaze!!!! i can't wait it's gonna be sooo much fun <33

                                      ~*me*~

sooo who thinks i should stick with these colors and who thinks i should change them??

Throw Rocks At Boys --> http://www.davidandgoliathtees.com/games/throwrocks.html

^haha this made my day-try it!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

can't wait till tomorrow <33

                                ~*me*~